You tell me “it gets better, it gets better,
in time”
You say I’ll pull myself together, pull it together,
“You’ll be fine”
Tell me what the hell do you know,
What do you know,
Tell me how the hell could you know,
How! could you know Continue reading
My husband feels like this song and video greatly represent my distancing myself from my family. I will highlight the lyrics he likes the best. But it is not just the lyrics that symbolizes my relationships with my family, to him, the video does too. My husband really likes the symbolization in each of the “perfect” trucks. He especially finds the last truck striking. As the truck drives by it says “The perfect life is waiting for you.” But then the f in life falls away to reveal, the words, “the perfect lie is waiting for you.”
Hello all my followers. I have divided my blog posts out to several different blogs based on posting topics. It did not seem right to have a blog post about Homeschooling one day and then the next day have a blog post about being a Survivor of Abuse all on the same blog. Continue reading
I collect songs on my DJ blog that resonate with where I am at emotionally at different times of my life. One of the many videos I have collected is Alanis Morissete’s song Ironic. I sang that son especially when all my efforts were working towards creating good in my life, yet everything around me seemed to be going against me. It all felt very Ironic, to work so hard towards a success and to continually see my success fall apart because of some outside force. Continue reading
Because of you (and Sister #2) I never feel I can trust my friends. Because of you I am waiting for my words to be misinterpreted and used against me. Because of you I expect to have thinly veiled criticisms from everyone. Because of you I never want to be vulnerable again. Because of you I do not feel I can be respected how I am. Because of you I expect the kind words are all lies. Because of you I don’t believe peoples claims of support. Because of you I expect to be betrayed by anyone close. Because of you I believe my friendships are false. Because of you I do not believe people can believe me.
I have been on a Jason Mraz kick for several months. I realized the other day I have not posted any Jason Mraz music videos to my blog. Since I am listening to these songs constantly it is about time I posted some!
I’m a new soul
I came to this strange world
Hoping I could learn a bit about how to give and take.Â
But since I came here
Felt the joy and the fear
Finding myself making every possible mistakeÂ
I’m a young soul in this very strange world
Hoping I could learn a bit bout what is true and fake.Â
But why all this hate?
Try to communicate
Finding trust and love is not always easy to make.Â
This is a happy end
Cause’ you don’t understand
Everything you have done
Why’s everything so wrongÂ
This is a happy end
Come and give me your hand
I’ll take you far away.Â
I’m a new soul
I came to this strange world
Hoping I could learn a bit about how to give and take
But since I came here
Felt the joy and the fear
Finding myself making every possible mistake.Â
Author of SHATTERED, a memoir of childhood sexual abuse
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Jeanine A DJ 